2:44 p.m. - 2008-05-12
Sorry, again!
I know, I know. I'm a bad blogger! (slapping of the hand will now commence) But seriously, I said I would only start writing a lot again, when I actually had a life. Well guess what? I still don't have a life. I did do something pretty awsome this last weekend though! On Saturday I went to.....PROM! Yes, prom, me. The homeschooler who never leaves her home without feeling a strong sense of guilt. My friend, D. asked me to go with her and I said sure. So we spent all day Thursday looking for prom stuff. My mom and I were so proud of ourselves. Here's some statistics for you. A girl spends about three or four months planning ahead and buying for prom. She spends an average of $1000 on everything. You ready for this. We did prom (dress, shoes, accessories, etc.) in three hours and managed to spend only $190. Yes, we're cool like that. And don't think I looked crummy either. I got quite a few looks from some young gentlemen sitting across from us. I hate to brag, but everybody kept telling me I looked.....hot. Me. Hot. Wow. Why. Am. I. Writing. Such. Short. Sentences? Anyways, I don't think I did half bad and that will be a night I will always remember. And graduation is only in four days! My friend A. is coming out from California. A, the one who wants to start a band. We thought of this idea about four months ago and we still haven't come up with a band name. (sigh) I am getting better though. Gotta go. Bye now!
9:19 p.m. - 2008-05-01
I liiiiiiive!
I'm baaaack.
No, but seriously, I've feel like I've been gone for months and it's really only been a couple of weeks. I just checked where I left off. I wanted to talk about fair. Well, it's come and gone now. And what a time it was! First of all, the people. Wow. Can't live with them, can't live without them. There are a few people I would like to talk about. First of all, Zoe F. I won't use her full name here. What a wonderful, sweet personality. Honestly, one of the nicest girls I know, next to my friend Kristi. Definitely going to keep up with her. Secondly, Stephen H. That boy, wow. The nicest, most polite, most flirtatious, most honest, most ego bigger than his head, boy you will ever meet. His only faults are probably the fact that he likes hanging out with us girls a little tooo much, and, if anyone needed a piece of humble pie, it would be him, Heck, why stop at a slice. I say give him the whole darn thing. But he's just so nice. It's so hard to find a true gentleman nowadays, and he's one of them. He even insists on opening the door for us to let us go ahead. Now that's manners. I don't know if I like, like him, or if I just consider him a really good freind. That boy really confuses me sometimes. Well, enough about that. Unfortunately, the only thing I managed to get in this year were some pretty terrible photographs. I got four blue ribbons and one red. I know that sounds good, but when I compare it to the fact that I know I had pictures that were so much better and the fact that I knew I was capable of more, just really got me steamed for a while. But, I guess it's not so much of a big deal now. Alright, I know this is short, but I'm going to wrap it up. I have to go see a campus adviser tomorrow and I have to bring in some sort of class schedule with me. Naturally, I already got that done today, but then I lost the paper. So now I have to do it all over again. Yay
12:02 p.m. - 2008-04-12
I'm baaaaack!
Hoooo boy!
What a week. My grandpa's funeral was this week. Last Saturday, actually. Oh man, I was an emotional wreck. I don't think I've cried that hard in a long time. The funeral was absolutely perfect. First we did a veiwing, then we had a strictly family memorial service. Then we all went out to lunch as a family. It was really nice. Just like old times. The bigger memorial service was later that afternoon. Tons of people showed up! A lot of the guys my Grandpa had worked with from McDonnell-Douglas and Boeing (or the evil B-word) showed up. That was really nice. My uncle is a pastor so he did the service. It was beautiful. He called the message "Our first day in Heaven." Simply lovely. Unfortunately, there's a whole bunch of family drama right now concerning my aunt, the one who drove us out there. I guess the rest of the family told her she needs to seperate from her husband for a little while. He keeps her pretty secluded from the family. Not really any of my business, but, I'm really worried about her. She doesn't handle that kind of thing very well. Just got to wait a while and see what happens. On top of all this, fair is coming up. Judging night for sewing, quilting, and photography is on Monday. Yikes! I'll be able to enter my photos, but there's no way I'm going to finish my sewing and quilting projects. Ugh. So much for going out with a bang.
Oh, and just another little note. I was just reading through my older entries and I realized I had really beaten down on my VP. If your reading this by any crazy chance in this world, then I want to apologize for the things I said and the attitude I displayed. I really was stressed past my breaking point, and unfortunately, I took it all out on you. Sorry. :(
10:11 a.m. - 2008-03-30
\".....................\"
My Papa and I went to a musical presentation of the Lord of the Rings by the Tucson Symphony Orchestra. While we were there, my grandpa started fading. A few hours after we got home, he passed away. My Grandpa. The man who helped raise me. No more talking today. (sigh)
11:12 a.m. - 2008-03-28
CRAZY week
Okay, whoa my gosh! Just slow down, rewind, and STOP! Where in the world have I been? Well, right here, if you must know. It's been almost a week, for those of you who are calender challenged, like me. So, what's been going on that has made me forget to update. Weeelllll, for one thing, graduation has been taking up a lot of my time. I finally got my cap and gown and the speech is written so that's basically taken care of now. College has also been time consuming. I went to an orientation this week that lasted three hours long! Actually, it was rather interesting and I enjoyed it. The only thing was, when they were talking about signing up and schedules and stuff, they only talked about summer classes! So I felt really stupid, because I'm not officially joining until fall. Fortunately, I don't have to go again. Then, of course, Fair is getting closer. That's been an absolute nightmare. Okay, so me and my vice prez had to write some letters to different businesses to see if they would donate food, drinks and ice to us. Of course, I was the one who wrote the letter. When I sent it in, the V.P. complained about the stupidest things. So I got mad and had my little pout out, but I still fixed her stupid mistakes. Then, my Grandpa had a really bad relapse. My mom had to rush out to Califorina, literally last minute. That means, I'm at home with the kids all week. And of course, I'm already stressed about this stuff and I have no idea if my Grandpa's going to pass away this week. If he doesn't, mom comes back on Sunday. If he does, we all have to go out there for the week. So much for a schedule. So I wrote to my V.P. and told her that I would basically not be available for the next two weeks. I told her not to e-mail me with any 4H stuff, and to just handle it herself. Well, apperantly she isn't capapble of that! She just keeps on writing, and giving suggestions, and asking me to do stuff for her! I'm like, hello! What part of stressed to my limit do you not understand. 4H is at the bottom of my list of priorities right now, and I don't want to hear about it! Ugh. So, right now, I'm just watching the kids. Making sure they don't kill each other. (sigh) I feel lonely.
Luv,
Nessa
6:02 p.m. - 2008-03-22
(insert random title)
Okay, I think I missed yesterday, so give me a minute to think of what we did. Well, we were going to go get haircuts, but we put that off until today. My papa spent the whole morning painting the stairwell. My brother and I steamed off the baseboards. We're really going to have to touch them up this summer. All the paint is peeling off. After that, we had to break down a whole bunch of thorn covered branches from off of our palo verde. Ugh. Then I had to drop that and run to sewing, because I was already late. Had a really great time. Of all the 4H projects I've been in, sewing and quilting are definitely the most relaxing. As for today, like I already said, the only thing we really did was go get our haircuts. I had them keep the length, but they cut some really cute layers in the back. I (heart) SuperCuts. Oh, tomorrow's Easter! I might not get to write, so.......happy pre/present Easter!
9:29 p.m. - 2008-03-20
Graduation and college (shudder)
Oh my gosh!
I'ts been quite a while, hasn't it? So what's been going on for so long that has led me to forego my duties of updating? Well, for one thing, trying to prepare for graduation has been crazy. I had to write a short speech and, it turns out, I have no talent in writing speeches. None whatsoever. It's almost embarrassing. And I've been planning out everything for it. Gotta go get the cap and gown. Gotta get the dress and the hair done. Gotta record the stupid speech. I'm actually raelly hoping that this speech pulls off what I'm trying to get across to my parents and everyone else. That despite all my dissapointments and moods, I still love them and appreciate what they did for me. Oh, and I've been preparing to go to the community college all week. I just went and took my assessment tests today. I scored a 96 in writing and a 99 in reading, so I scored into the honors program. Unfortunately, I only got a 37 on my math test and now I have to take the lowest course they offer! I'm really dissapointed. I figured I did pretty good on the test and when I saw that score, it really bugged me. I've been repeating this kind of math since the eigth grade, and I croaked on the one time when it was really important. I won't be officially enrolling till the fall semester. I'd miss too many classes if I tried for summer, what with Mexico and all. And that's basically what this whole week has been based on. Nothing else extrordinary has happened. I babysat tonight. Whoop-de-do. Made $15 bucks. Yay me! I suppose I should just be thankful I have a sort of job. Some people have none. Poor poor people.
Luv,
Nessa
6:46 p.m. - 2008-03-16
Things about people
Well, it's official. My computer is done for. It would cost about $200 dollars to fix it. For the kind of computer I have, it's just better to buy a new one. 'Course, that means that we're looking at double the price, but it'll be worth it.
We didn't stay behind to listen to the message in church today. Mom and Papa had to go to the tax place and get that all worked out. Don't know who spoke. Oh, and I finally got Nik's address. So now I can write to him and let him know we're thinking of him. Awwww. You know, that family is not exactly what I would call gracious and forgiving, so I'm really hoping that this whole Navy thing really turns him into a neater person. A more responsible person. Hmm.
While I'm going on about what I think of people, I don't understand the whole relationship thing. I'm totally for one man, one woman, anti-abortion, and all that jazz. But I just don't get how it works. I'm actually sort of hoping that college will explain some of these mysteries to me. I don't even know why I've been thinking about this so much lately. Another hmm.
Luv,
Nessa
3:40 p.m. - 2008-03-15
4H events and stuff
Okay, I'm back!
Yesterday I ended up having to go to the park to drop off some Fair forms and then I managed to scrape a few people together and go on a ticket selling spree. Okay, maybe spree wasn't the best way to put it. We only had about 15 people and we only sold about 32 tickets. That's not so good when you consider that we had 89 extra tickets to sell. We had a good time though. It went really smooth. Today was another big day. We were supposed to go down to a members house to do some rock moving. We hold shooting sports meetings at their house and they needed more parking. So we moved a ton of rocks and cleared two tons of weeds and had to pull out two fully grown cholla cacti. Moving the rocks and clearing the weeds was the easy part. It was those stupid cholla that we had such a problem with. We ended up hooking a chain to them and pulling them out with the truck. But not before I managed to injure myself. I was clearing some weeds around one of the cholla and when I stood up I rammed my head right into one of the cholla branches. One of my friends, Tim, helped me pull them out. Of course then I was bleeding and that was gross. But we managed to get a lot done and it feels really good to do a hard day's work. This family that we're helping lost their father and husband, I think two years ago, and it's been really hard on them to keep the place up. Oh, and I got to see Andrew D. It's been quite a while since I last saw him. I used to have a crush on him. (Can't believe I just admitted that) Now we're just freinds. Good enough for me. He's really one of the nicer guys I've ever met. He lives down by the UofA with his brother, Will, so I don't see him much. Maybe we'll hang out more next year. Seeing everyone like this is definitely going to be one of the things I'll miss about 4H. I've only told the other officers that this is my last year. I don't really know how to tell everyone else. Like my friend Kristi said, it's just time to move on.
Luv,
Nessa
7:59 p.m. - 2008-03-13
Stupid computer, stupid fundraiser
Okay, so my laptop broke last night. I had just finished typing up yesterdays entry, and I turned off my compy and started to shut the top when I heard something snap! I lifted it up again and saw that the area where the hinge is and where the top connects to the keyboard had broken. A little metal piece had snapped clean in half. So now I'm too afraid to even open up my computer. I know it's going to have to get sent in or something, to the computer doctor and I know it's going to cost a lot. (sigh) Stupid old computer.
Oh, and another fundraiser got flushed down the toilet. And guess what? It was the exact same fundraiser...again! Ugh. I set up the exact same deal except I set it up for tomorrow. Same time, same place, everything. And once again, I told them to call or write me if they wanted to come. At the comm. meeting, I even told them all to be checking our post site. One family wrote back. At least it's better than last week when I had a whole number of 0! Ugh and (sigh). I'm trying to set up a strictly officer ticket selling thing, but the girl who is supposed to call the officers tonight to find out if they want to do anything tomorrow, still hasn't called me back! I solemnly swear here and now, that I will never try and set up a fundraiser on my own again for as long as I live. Ha! Take that, anonymous people who want me to set up fundraisers!
1:42 p.m. - 2008-03-12
I blame all societies problems on Barbie
Oops, I did it again.
I caught my six year old sister singing that yesterday. All family members are now officially banned from Barbie.com. Says my mom. No big loss, if you ask me. I think we should hold a Barbie boycott and show them what exactly we think of their immodest clothing and stupid escapades. A van that converts into a pool? Come on! I also hate her because she's skinnier than me. Stupid Barbie with her stupid girlish figure! Anyways, sorry I haven't kept up...again. Just didn't feel like it actually. On Monday we had our community meeting for 4H. You know, I spent an hour typing up an agenda for that day and none of the other officers bothered to print out the copies I sent them!? It was either that, or their computers had shut down, or they hadn't checked their e-mail, or they just didn't bother to read it at ALL! Ugh. I know I'm totally against government schooling, but the one setback for homeschooling is that if you do it, you don't ever have deadlines for anything. Your'e never held accountable or punished by a teacher if you "forget" a paper. Or if you just don't want to do anything. One of the officers got sick right befor the meeting so I had to take over all her stuff, another just happened to lose her voice right before she was supposed to go up and do a skit for the importance of having wristbands for Fair. Naturally, they were both perfectly fine after the meeting. Ugh again. I can't wait until this year is over and I don't have to put up with all their @$*% anymore. Sorry about that little outburst. It just really, really bugs me. Didn't really do anything interesting yesterday. I did babysit, but that's it. Other than I have to go have dinner at church tonight, nothing is really going on today either. And this is getting long. I'm leaving you now. Don't cry for me, I'm already dead.
Luv,
Nessa
9:15 p.m. - 2008-03-08
Not very good at this, am I?
Oh boy,
I did it again, didn't I? Man, I have got to stay on top of this. So, what's been going on these past few days, you may wonder? Why is this girl such a slacker? When's lunch? Anyways, nothing too exciting has happened. Did a whole lot of nothing on Thursday. Friday was rather interesting though, if you consider extremely annoying to be interesting. I tried to put together another fundraiser for our 4H club. Ugh. This is the second time and I failed again. And you know what's even worse? It's the exact same fundraiser!! Ugh again. Long story short, I tried to set up a date for the whole club to go out and sell these raffle tickets and I told them to call or write me to let me know they were coming. And guess what? No one called OR wrote, that's what! This is the laziest 4H group I've ever seen, and I think I'll almost be relieved to leave it behind next year. I'm graduating high school a year early (if I haven't already mentioned it) and I'm going to be going to community college full time next year. No time for 4H. (sigh) Today, I just went on a bike ride through the area and took some really nice nature pictures. I'm really into photography and I'll be entering some into the county fair. For those of you that actually take time to read this junk, you should come see my pictures at the fair. I got some pretty good ones, I think. Oh shoot, I have to go take a shower. And I was on a roll too. Okay, bye!
Luv,
Nessa
9:36 p.m. - 2008-03-05
Fairly normal day
Yesterday I went to a meeting,
It was really boring. 3 hours of stuff. I'm not even going to diegn to talk about it. Just 4H stuff. I had to go get two shots today. Boo-hoo! The last one hurt so bad I had to have my mom drive home for me. Also, went to chuch for dinner tonight. It was Pasghetti. Pizza/Spaghetti. Mmmm. Other than that, nothing happened today. I'm just sitting here, typing, watching X3. Yeah, life is okay right now. This is getting boring. Bye.
Luv,
Nessa
2:21 p.m. - 2008-03-04
Sorry old chum
Oh my goodness! I'm a bad blog writer! (slapping my hand) Bad, bad! Anyway, sorry I haven't updated in two days. Sort of got caught up in things and this writing online hasn't exactly become a habit yet. So, mom and papa came home at about 10:00 on Sunday night. Oh, and I went to church. We had a guest speaker from Emmaus Prison Ministry that day. He wasn't very good. We didn't really understand what he was actually trying to teach us. He kept going off on how he was brought up Catholic and all the crazy stuff he believed in. I think he was talking about salvation, but I can't be sure. Monday, yesterday, mom had a whole bunch of errands to run and none of them involved me so I stayed home and did my school work and generally messed around. Had dinner, went to bed, yaddah, yaddah.
Today I actually had to go out and do something. First, me and mom went to the post office to see about getting me a passport (for Mexico), but they didn't do that stuff, so we decided to print out a form online and then try another post office later. Then we had to drop by Liam's school to drop off his tuition money. After that, we swung by the library and then came on home.
My new community leader called today and informed me that we had an officers meeting tonight that I thought was on friday. So I have to go there tonight. Yeah, that's going to be a real fun-fun ride (insert sarcastic voice). Tell you about it tomorrow, this is getting long.
Luv,
Nesssa
3:51 p.m. - 2008-03-01
Frustrated
Aargh, I am frustrated! My whiny friend came by today to study and it was a total waste of time! Okay, so it's day four of my parent's being gone, but they're coming home tomorrow night so we did a MAJOR clean up of the house this morning. That took till about 1:00 and that's when my friend dropped by. She kept preteding to fall asleep and kept telling me to stop talking 'cause she already knew some of the stuff. Then she wouldn't even pick up the chicken because it had pooped on itself. I even cleaned up the bird and she still wouldn't touch it. Then, when we decided to go over general knowledge questions, it was like she totally didn't even care. I wasn't giving her all the answers and I told her she had to look up some stuff for herself, so then she got mad at me and said there was no way she was going to study any of this stuff, "Because what was the point, she was only going to forget it." Ugh. I mean, no wonder you haven't gotten anything done all year! Do you even try?! She didn't leave until 3:30 and I feel like we got nothing done. And, I was so wrapped up in cleaning house and teaching my friend that I completely forgot about dinner! I was supposed to make crockpot ribs, and now it's too late! So currently, I'm just trying to relax and I'll figure out dinner when it's really an issue. Maybe I'll order a pizza. Mmmmm, pizza.
9:03 p.m. - 2008-02-29
Oooh, bad girl!
Hola! Boring day numero tres, if you know what I mean. I just got done with my Spanish homework. Really actually helps to know some Spanish, when you go there.
Anyways, today we didn't get up until 7:30 and we made pancakes at 8:00! I didn't even get dressed until almost nine! This is almost like a vacation. After that we walked down to the local Safeway and bought some of those sparkling flavored waters. I got lime and it was gooooood. I also had to pick up some pasta and wax paper, but that's boring. Then I came home, made lunch and fell asleep on the couch for two hours. I AM SO BORED! I did make some awsome pasta though. Everybody says my pasta is really good. I'm like some sort of pasta wizard!
Can you tell yet how bored I am? (sigh) Well, I'm going to go drown my sorrows in some Johnny Depp dressed as a totally hot pirate. Bye bye now!
Luv,
Nessa
4:37 p.m. - 2008-02-28
Boring Day 2
Day two of the parents being gone. I am bored out of my skull! You'd think I'd be having an awsome time right now, breaking rules and having parties. Instead, I'm sitting here, typing, finishing my homework, thinking about the next thing I have to clean up. Why do I have to be so darn responsible! Ugh.
My whining friend was supposed to come over today to study for Fair with me, but they had a last minute errand (I couldn't quite catch what it was) to run and couldn't come after all. Man, I made snacks and everything.
At least they won't go to waste. I got called for a last minute babysitting job and the mom agreed to bring them to my house. Their son and daughter are friends with my brother and sister, so they pretty much entertain themselves. It's kinda nice. Getting paid to watch some kids for a few hours from the comfort of my own home. Pretty sweet, if you ask me.
Thought I might add some movies to my favorites list: Road to Bali, My Man Godfrey, Roy Rogers, Abbot and Costello, Royal Wedding, Lone Ranger, The Jungle Book, Peter Pan, Chitty Chitty Bang Bang, Little Women, Apple Dumpling Gang, Mary Poppins, Elf, The Hobbit, Lion King, Bambi, Sound of Music, Cats Don't Dance, 101 Dalmations, Ever After, Curious George, and that's just kids movies.
I also like: Anna & the King, Armageddon, Batman Begins, Big Trouble in Little China, Bill Cosby, all the Bourne movies, The Cable Guy, Cast Away, Dave, Enemy at the Gates, Ghostbusters I & II, The Goonies, Henry V, Jaws, all Jurassic Parks, Jumanji, The Karate Kid, The Last Samurai, My Big Fat Greek Wedding, National Treasure, Ocean's Eleven, The Phantom of the Opera, Pirates of the Caribbean, Radio, Remember the Titans, Reign of Fire, Sabrina, Seabiscuit, Signs, Sneakers, all things Spiderman, Spinal Tap, all the Star Wars (yes, all), The 13th Warrior, Them, Titan A.E., Tombstone, The Vikings, and all the X-
men. Told ya' it would be a long list.
Luv,
Nessa
5:28 p.m. - 2008-02-27
Leaving for Cali.
Nothing too exciting today. Mom and Papa just left for Cali. with Aislinn and Liam tonight. They're going to just push on through. They are going up there to visit my Grandpa in the hospital and keep my Grandma company. She's never had to live alone before and it's taking it's toll. They'll be back on Sunday evening.
Oh, and I finally found out when exactly I'm going to Mexico this year. It's from July 11th to the 20th, so between those days I won't be able to write. No internet. I'm so excited, I could easily spontaneously combust right here! But, I won't. Too messy.
Other than that, there's nothing to report. Bye, bye!
9:41 p.m. - 2008-02-26
A miracle
Wow. I'm really late tonight. Anyways, an absolute miracle happened today! Let me give you some background first. We've owned some property in Oregon for about 14 years now next to my grandparents. We visit them every summer. Last summer, a couple from my church in Oregon was going on a mission trip to Mexico with a larger group from another church. So I asked if it was all right if I could go too. They were more than willing to have me along.
So I went to Mexico. That was the best ten days of my life. I'd always wanted to go on a real mission trip. I've been planning to go again all year. I just had no idea how I was going to scrape together $375! Today, my friend who stuck by me the most in Mexico, e-mailed me and informed me that someone had told her they wanted to sponsor my mission trip. So they donated exactly $375! Isn't that amazing! I couldn't breath, I was so shocked. She didn't tell me who the donater was, so it's like a real miracle! Wow. I mean, wow. Even my parents got excited.
That was my only really big news. I re-emailed that girl who wasn't good at anything. I invited her over so we could do a hang out/study day. She's studying for the poultry show at the county fair. I was in the poultry club for six years so I should know something about chickens, right?
Yesterday I was working on my profile and I just thought I'd list here some of the other things I like-
Music: Police, Sting, Jeremy Camp, Third Day, Delirious, anything from the thirties to the fifties, Josh Turner, Reba McEntire, and Willie Nelson.
Movies: You know what, that will take forever and this is getting long. I'll add more later.
Luv,
Nessa
6:05 p.m. - 2008-02-25
It's good to get these things out
Did a whole lot of nothing today. School, baked some banana bread, more school.
My moms been pretty grumpy lately. You know, it seems like my parents aren't happy anymore unless they're with each other. It's like "us kids" just don't cut it anymore. Have we really become such a disappointment to them that we can't make them happy anymore. Used to be that they told us no matter what they'd always listen to us and be there when we needed them. I guess that's just not true anymore. We're sending my three younger brothers and sisters to school for the first time. I've been told offhand that it was all my fault because I couldn't get off my fat, lazy butt. I just sit at home all day and do nothing but eat their food and mooch around. Look at my twelve year old brother. He has a job three days a week. He's making something of himself. You want to know why I've never bothered to get a job? Because they told me I shouldn't! They said they didn't want me to go out into the public workplace! They didn't want me to get in any bad situations. Now their veiws have changed and I'm not doing anything to support the family, and what's wrong with me!? Ugh. I know I probably sound like a real spoiled brat, but honestly. How would you react if your parents went against everything they ever taught you to be right in one swift move?
Luv,
Nessa
5:05 p.m. - 2008-02-24
Not so lazy Sunday
Went to church today.
It's a nice little place. Full of old people and aging people. I'm literally the only highschooler there. There are a few people who are only a couple years older than me, but they all have their own lives and don't have time to hang out. Either that, or they just don't like me. Message was good though. Mr. Rockhold spoke today.
When we got home my brothers & sisters & I all had to wash/vacuum my mom and papa's car. It literally took all afternoon. We did get to swim a little afterwards though. That was awsome! We've been talking about getting a pool for, well, for ever. It just got filled yesterday, so today was the first time we could actually swim in it. And trust me, out here, that's the greatest feeling in the world.
I just checked my e-mail. My friend Maddie (I won't use her real name here) wrote me this terrible e-mail about how she sucks at everything, and her life is messed up, she hasn't done any schoolwork, she's no good, blah, blah, blah! I have thrown every encouraging thing I have at that girl and she's still writing these depressing e-mails. I really don't know what to do. I mean, is she going through some sort of depression right now, or is she just milking the attention I've been showing her for all it's worth? It wouldn't be the first time. Nor will it be the last, I'm sure.
Luv,
Nessa
3:48 p.m. - 2008-02-23
My life, in the middle of this website
Here I am.
Being a good little girl and keeping up with my diary. Guess I'll tell everyone a little bit about myself. First of all, I'm a geek/nerd/country-western/internet junkie/God-following girl. Now read through those again and try and picture ever meeting any one else like that in your entire life. Yeah, neither can I.
I'm the eldest of five children, the only one from a previous marriage. My dad is Hispanic-Navajo and my mom is Irish-German respectively. Am I really starting to weird you out now? My mom and dad divorced when I was two and both re-married when I was three. I live with my mom, who HATES my dad. 'Nuff said.
I live here in good old AZ. I'm a homeschooler and also the president of my 4H club. Hm, homeschooling. I wonder what you all are thinking about this word right now. I've been homeschooled since the fourth grade and I swore I would never go back to school, sort of an "over my dead body" type thing. I don't like the way our school system works and, yes, that's my final answer. Except now that's all about to change. I'll tell you why later.
4H. Right now we're in a sort of love/hate relationship. Also more on that...later. My goodness, this has gotten long. Let me end it with a poem I just made up today.
I look up,
The sky is dark.
I feel
Confusion,
Lonely,
Lost,
Sad.
I look up,
The sky is bright.
I feel
Happy,
Joyous,
Thankful,
Wonder.
Was that even poetry? I don't know, it sounded better in my head. Oh well. See ya'll tomorrow.
Luv,
Nessa
Oh; and I made chocolate chip cookies today. Yum!
10:51 p.m. - 2008-02-22
Intro to me
Uummm, okay. Here we go.
Hi. My name's Monessa H., I'm seventeen, and I just got started on this whole web diary/blog thing. I actually don't know why I signed up for this. I've usually always looked down on the the whole online blog thing. Now, I'm finding that if I can get my life into words, maybe I can fix it up a little. I'm not a drunk or a druggie or a prostitute or anything like that. I'm just a normal kid with normal, irritating problems. Maybe I'm just feeling a little lost right now.
Anyways, I don't have a problem with putting this up in public. I promise there will be no bad words or crude remarks or anything like that. In fact, typing prostitute was about as graphic as this thing is going to get. I'm actually kind of surprised I did that.
So, if anyone even really cares, I'd like to bore you with the story of my life. But not right now. I'm still not quite sure about this whole diary thing, so you'll just have to give me some time to adjust. Well, hopefully I'll be able to do an entry a day. We'll see.
Luv,
Nessa
